Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Not All Smiles
Today was a sad day for WanYing - a clingy, mopy, teary, blue day. We don't know what triggers these days and I know we shouldn't be surprised by them, after all, every aspect of WanYing's life has been turned upside down in the last five months. But they're still hard. They're hard for the Daddy who is trying to keep a house running while simultaneously caring for a girl who desperately needs quiet snuggles for hours at a time. They're hard for Sasha and Ben and Sam who have to be in-tune with their sister's emotions and (hopefully) not push her too far or play too raucously on sensitive days. And they're hard on WanYing who is just trying to survive so much change. We wish we could just reach inside behind those pained little eyes and wipe away all of the confusion and fear and insecurity. We wish we could right all of the injustice of her first two years. We wish we could just make it better. But we can't. This is a part of her journey, and a road she has to walk and reconcile with through each stage of her growth and maturity. And right now, the best we can do for our baby is to walk alongside her and cuddle her and speak the truth that she is, and always has been, loved and that nothing can separate her from that love. Because, in the end, it is only that Love that can heal her heart.