Sunday, August 10, 2008

The Craziest Thing we've Ever Done

Steve and I were chatting last night and came to the agreement that adoption is the craziest thing we've ever done - and if you've known us for any length of time, you'll know that's quite the statement. We've gone out on a limb before, trusting that God knows us better than we know ourselves and has a better plan than we could ever imagine - but this adoption thing is taking it to a whole new level!

Right now we're in what I've heard others refer to as the "dark time" of waiting. It's been over a month since we've had news that our dossier has progressed and in all probability we won't hear anything else for a month or two more. We should stress that this is normal - our paperwork is working its way through the bureaucracy of Kazakhstan and will in all likelihood emerge from the other side approved and needing no additional work or change. Some things are changing in adoption procedure in Kaz, but since our paperwork is already in their hands we shouldn't have to redo any paperwork for the new rules. Even if we do, it's no biggie, just another paper to notarize and FedEx in :)

But that's all what my head says. My heart says that this is the longest, cruelest wait of my life! I do believe that God is preparing us as parents, as a family during this waiting time, but man oh man am I ready for the waiting to be over. I want to go meet my baby!

So, what to do during these months of waiting? Well, the first thing I've been doing is to take care of myself - my sisters at church remind me that God is getting us ready for a missionary adventure and I'm learning more about myself and my Savior in preparation. I pray for myself, my family, my little girl; I read scripture and study to know more about our miraculous adventure in grace and refinement; I pray Ephesians 3:16-19 for our little girl:
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, my have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
And I remind myself that waiting in hope for the Lord is never a static process, and it's never without a reason. And I trust God's reasons and timelines far more than I trust my own (even though I tend to like mine better!)

What else do I do to pass the days/weeks/months? Well, right now I'm in buying mode (Steve just loves this phase). We haven't started decorating Sestra's room yet, so I can't channel my psycho-nervous energy into painting, so I've been buying stuff for our trip. This is a worthwhile pastime, since Steve and the boys don't have very good traveling clothes, so it's been fun shopping for those. Last week I purchased new snow boots for Sam and me. Snow boots. In August. I'm telling you, this waiting does crazy things to my head!

In between work and all of the elements of "normal" life, we've also been:
On that last bullet point, we have lots of gifts to buy for the folks we'll meet along the way in Kazakhstan, so I've been hunting for fabulous sale items to drag along with us. So far I have:
  • 16 American flag notepads and pens
  • 12 cool reusable bags to give the gifts in
  • 3 packs of tissue paper and curly ribbon for wrapping in Kaz
  • 4 make-up bags with Clinique bonuses (thanks, Laura!)
  • 7 American flag t-shirts
  • 12 sets of soap, etc. from Bath and Body Works
  • 2 sets of bangle bracelets
  • 25 Utah postcards with our thank-you message printed on the back
Yes, by the time we travel, we will probably have gifts for the entire population of Kazakhstan. But that's ok, we'll be grateful to all of them!

So now that you know way more than you probably cared about our preparations for our third kiddo, I thought I'd leave you with our thank-you note, 'cause everything looks cool in Russian:
Благодарю вас за то, что вы так тёпло приветствовали нас в красивом Казахстане и за помощь в усыновлении нашего ребёнка.
Искренне Ваши,
Семья Морнигстар
Thank you for warmly welcoming us to beautiful Kazakhstan and for helping us realize the adoption of our child.
The Morningstar Family


Butch & Tracy said...

Yes it does seem to be a dark time. BUt we both know there is a light at the end shining so bright. Waiting for us to come to it.

We are right there with you. In this long process. Lets just keep lifting each other and our families and children up... We will make it.


The Gobble's (Lanetta) said...

I totally agree with the post about a dark time... it's tough, but I also agree that God is there... and he knows all about it..
so, we are clinging to his promises...
wow.. you've bought a bunch of presents and you are on top of this.. wow..!! I'm way impressed!

The Stackler Clan said...

JAMIE!!!! Hi! We are adopting too!!!!! We are going to Ethiopia. We have just reached our 3 month of waiting, hopefully it will be another 3-4, but it could be 5-6. I can't wait to chat more.

Jstar said...

Amy, I'm so excited to hear more about your adoption - it sounds like our families are on really similar journeys! And thanks for the other comments, Tracy, you're right, lifting each other up is exactly what we're called to do during our waiting time.

Trudi said...

All you can do is keep busy like you are doing and enjoy the beautiful state in which you live.
And keep coming up with more uses for zucchini! Hang in there. The wait for our grandchild was painful but incredibly rewarding and now the wait seems like a blink.

The Fox Den said...

You and Steve are a beautiful testimony! We are excited for you four... thanks for sharing your heart!


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