Last Tuesday I found out that my position at Move Networks will not be funded after mid-January. After the initial shock of it all, my inevitable first question was, "what in the world will this do to our adoption plans?!?" Of course, I also had to grapple with the natural, inevitable feelings of betrayal and loss, but don't worry, we Morningstars are a hardy bunch. I won't pretend to understand all of the whys behind the decision. I do know that I work in a volatile industry and that choosing a startup leaves me vulnerable to massive restructurings like this sometimes.
But let's talk silver linings, because that's much more fun than wondering why :)
- I will still draw salary for the next couple of months and then will receive benefits beyond that. So, basically, I'm being paid to find a new position and we'll still have health insurance even if it takes me a little while to find a place to land.
- We talked with our adoption agency and confirmed that this should not affect our adoption. We are two highly employable adults with a whole lot of love to give and this is just a fact of American life. This does not affect our ability to care for a child
- We're coming up on Steve's busy season at work and Sundance confirmed that they would love to have him work full time when he's available
- To be honest, the idea of having a little extra time at home with our new little one is appealing
- Oh, yeah, and let's not forget that we are a part of something far, far greater than ourselves! If this year brings us a more Christ-like marriage, a new Morningstar, a family more assured of our place in God's purposes, and all we lose is a job, we are blessed!
I've already had some interesting conversations about new positions, and Steve and I are both feeling optimistic about the job prospects here in Utah. The boys are
dead set on me working at Target because I work with computers and so I should be good at using a register. They also figured out that since most of the things that they love are at Target (Legos, gum, chocolate milk), they could use a discount to their advantage! I hate to disappoint, but I think that a desk job is in my future, boys.
As you will no doubt guess, this has been a very
interesting week for us (that's my new favorite word). But we have emerged from the initial panic and gloom to believe wholeheartedly that God has far more planned for us than we could ever ask or imagine. Your prayers are hugely appreciated.
I'll leave you with my new memory verse, Micah 7:7:
But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord,
I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.
This week Steve finished organizing the boys' room (and did a bang up job, I have to say). I'm sure that their closet and bookshelves will never look this gloriously neat again, so I'm just treasuring up these moments in my heart. I don't like the work of staying organized, but I have to admit that the end product sure looks fantastic!
And now with the boys' room done, Steve has turned his attention to Sestra's room. It's been our repository for all things, "I don't know what to do with that, just throw it somewhere!" but now it's cleaned out and the painting prep has begun! I've picked out the paint colors - Celery and West Highland White - and Gramma and Poppop are in town and ready to get down to painting! 
